Thought of the day - July 18th

I use to write my articles on paper first, before recopying everything on my computer or my phone. Now, I'm lying on the ground, rounded by grass and, in front of my eyes, I can see a little caterpillar trying to go on her way with her small and bizarre brown head and all her little paws.



This week, I'm at my grandma's house. I consider it as my second house even if, now, because we are quite far away from each other, we don't meet here so often.



Lying on this ground I so frequently played on, feeling this humid grass tickling my cheek as if it was the same than ten years ago, smelling the nature odor, with the trees, wonderfully mixed farm smells (cows, their food, the straw, ... for having lived in campaign for a couple of years, this smell is really sweet to me), hearing flies and bees flying, and birds singing their gracious songs, seeing the bricks house I almost grew up in, and butterflies, and all this little world living without even being aware of us, ...

That's like a discovering of the real nature of our world, forgetting the bad things human can do, letting our mind stopped for a while, only focused on nature's lullaby.




Alone, we are alone in front of ourselves, our acts, our behavior, the brightest and the darkest part of us...




And now, I'm sure I can do it. Through all these thoughts, all these questions, I'm sure I can fulfill my dreams.


People will follow me, or not, understand me, or not, know the fight I am taking, or not.
I don't care.
My family will always be there to give me advices, tips and reassurance.
Even if I fail, I will not give up. Never.
I have found a place where I am feeling at home, and that's where I can be me. The one sitting on the ground, the one loving learning like a crazy, the one who likes to be alone. This one.




A~