Hey guys ! Today, I felt like writing a talk. I could fill 5 pages of paper telling nothing concrete, but right now, I want to speak about more specific things. So, I thought "Why not writing an article about the last changes in your life ?", and here I am !
I've wanted to write this for a while now, because, going to university is completely changing my life, and, as I know that some people are quickly giving up their studies because they can't handle this new way of life... I'd like to give them motivation !
On August 27th, after my (very late) birthday party, my parents left me at my grandma's and went back home with my sis. Wow. That was... a very special and confusing moment. Seeing them so sad was awful, and staying here, outside the car, while my little sister was begging me, crying, to stay with her, completely broke my heart. She is one of the most precious person to me.
And then, they left. And then, I was here, with all the stuffs I had packed to move to Lille. I was here, and, actually, kind of ready to start a whole new life.
A few days after, my aunt brought me to my appartment and then, she left.
For the first time in my life, I was all alone. I organized my stuffs the way I wanted them to be, I made myself pasta and read a bit. Here it was. I never enjoyed that much being alone.
A couple of days after, I began to take lessons at university. Bye bye 300-people high-school, hello 19 000-people campus ! It took me sooo long to understand where I could find this or that, and I'm not sure that I understood everything yet. Well, when 1st floor is actually the 3rd, things tend to be messy, don't they ?
Then, when it really started, and I got completely lost with how everything was working. Plus, our section is the most badly organized of all the langues' degrees... Teachers couldn't give us the needed information, some people couldn't access to the Internet platform... Furthermore, classes was extremely borring as I already knew everthing that the teachers were saying.
But, instead of discouraging me, it gave me more strenght. I decided to use all possible ways to learn. If I already knew all the grammar points, then, I would learn every word, every kanji I was seeing without knowing their meaning or the way to write them. I would consolidate my N4-level, and begin to study for N3. I would do my best to have that wonderful scolarship from the Japanese government and, next year, leave to Japan for one whole year. Giving up never was an option.
I personally think that, if you do believe that you are doing what is good for you, if you are doing something that interests you, you should keep going, and do your best. Your efforts will pay, sooner or later.
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| Yes, even the efforts you make on remembering 20 kanji and 70 vocab words on a weekly basis ^^ |
Some people just begin their degree, and, after a few months, they give up everything because they got overwhelmed by the work, or, because they gave in to the temptation of an apparent liberty. All that because their way to take things is not the right one.
Once you get to live alone, you just depend on your own. Your life is up to you, and to no one else. Your decisions are making your future, you should be careful with them. The most important thing for you is to keep your aim in mind. See what is driving you, look at it, stare it, write it down on a piece of paper and hang it in the most obvious way in your room, so that you will keep thinking about it.
Who do you want to be ?
This is the question you should ask to yourself, and, if you do not have a complete answer, just picture who you don't want to be.
Finally, you can fully decide all that. You are starting one of the most important time in your life.
I was tired of being shy, tired of constantly feeling afraid to be straight forward with people, tired of constantly caring about what the others were thinking about me, ...
Getting to date the most wonderful man on earth helped me with my self-confidence issues. I knew that, whatever I'd do, when I'd send him a message, he'd always be there for me. However, it didn't avoid me to kick my ass once for all, and decide of what I would do of my life. And what I wanted was to look like him. No, I'm not actually speaking about having some freaky weird desire to be a man, okay ? ^^'
My boyfriend is this kind of man who can speak to everyone, who is very kind, and very careful. The kind of man you know that you can trust. The kind of man that everybody like and who is always doing something incredible. I'm showing him off too much, ain't I ?
Entering uni, I had my chance to try to do the same, and I made it. I took advantage of the fact that I'm living in a big city to go wherever I wanted. I met people from my appartment block, from my degree, I went to an art museum, I've been exploring Lille, subscibed to a Franco-Japanese association, I met people from Japan, Ukraine, Serbia, Spain, England, USA, Germany, ... And it's not the end yet.
Don't forget that this is the best time of your life. Some people would say that you are living the last years of your youth, your last years of freedom. You have to enjoy it ! Hang out, meet people, make friends, travel abroad, ... Just enjoy all the little things of everyday life !
Yes, being alone can be scary. When I moved here, I couldn't even cook pastas, and I didn't know how to clean an entire house. It was really frightening at first. I was afraid to poison myself, or to just fail everything that I was trying to do, but, I gradually got to live with that. Of course, it's still something to clean the bathroom, and these shower panes which are concretely UNCLEANABLE, but, I can cook yummy pastas now after 3 years of learning, and I enjoy preparing my own meals !
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| I even know how to cook rice salmon #proudofme |
All this article to tell you that you should do your best, and, mainly, what makes you happy.
For the first time in my life, I'm waking up every morning, knowing what I'm going to do, and with a strong desire to fulfill all my dreams. I never felt happier.
A~
I once lived alone. My dad was staying with his new loved one before they empty a room for me.
RépondreSupprimerI had a big flat for me and it was crazily AWESOME. I had to keep my place clean and cook my food (it wasn't such a struggle tho ;) )
But when I finally came with my NEW FAMILY it was at first horrible since I add all my new liberties crushed with the new rules and hosekeeping mechanics.
It took us some times to build a healthy family.
My point is that when you are about your 20's, it's time for actualy DOING new stuff. I think we can't stay within our olders cares. Or it gently destroy our capacity to act for our dreams.
I think most of us fail to take that step. We become adults and have all the ressources to buld our dreamed life.
But yeah.. it still HARD sometimes.
That was contribution. :)
Thank you for your comment, you're totally right !
SupprimerIf you don't begin to actually do things, to hang out, and enjoy your life at this precise period, between your childhood and work life, you will never. Because this is a chance that is only offered to you once in a life time.
(I can't even picture how you felt when you got to live with your dad and his girlfriend after some time living alone. This is kind of... frustrating ^^')